=)

Time: 6am ++

I can't believe I'm like blogging in the wee hours of a lazy morning. I should be sleeping! Heh.
Well gonna go do my passport later, meeting Clr at Lavender 'cause he also haven't renew his. Can I have a teleporting machine? I am so lazy to travel there...
I think I will be late, 'cause I am still blogging now. :X

Well. Yesterday's Chinese was alright. But I wrote crappy stuff for compo. Mind blank. Sigh. And there was an alarm ringing at the back of the hall so was rather distracted. The examiner removed it later, but I could still hear it ringing in my mind. Julius and Cvn feels the same too. Haha!

After school, went out to Kovan with Riyanti and (most of) the guys to eat. While some of the guys went to eat KFC, Riyanti, Gersh, Clr, Cvn, Julius, Woody & I went to eat at the shop (is this what you call it, a shop?) next to KFC. All of us had Nasi Lemak! (:

Met LX on the way back.

Went back to school, to kaypo people's OP.Oops. Didn't know my group was not staying back till the last minute, didn't want to go home so soon so stayed to observe. Only 2 groups stayed back.


Hardworking 121!


Cvn.


Me staring into space.

After they rehearsed and stuff, was at the bus stop, then went back to school with Gersh 'cause he wanted to do his I&R. Couldn't find Mrs Teo (Paged for her for the nth time still not there). So instead called Mr Ng, who ased him to email his I&R to him. So went to the library to retype everything.

And LIBRARIANS SPY ON PEOPLE USING THE COMPUTER! BEWARE. :O

Haha. So Gersh type type type like crazy, then the librarian kindly helpped us switch off our computer, lucky the I&R was saved in a tummy (thumbdrive) first.

So in the end, went home. Played com instead of doing work, that's why I am doing work now in the morning.

Shall stop here, off to rush to Lavender. (: Then after that to school again to rehearse OP.

A for PW!

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Back! One word to describe the trip to Lavender : Wow.
LOL. I overshot by a stop and had to walk back-_-.
Suprisingly we didnt take long to get over and done with the passport stuff. Yay. :D
Walk walk to Bugis (saved MRT fare hah), saw a lot of old, abandoned? houses. But no camera! Clr & I were like ARGH.


PW in school @ 2PM.
I screwed up everything, cant remember script, argh argh argh I felt like ______.

Currently using rusty Habbo account.
Off into virtual world.
Cartoony virtual world.
Hahaha.

=)

My life, total mess up.

Ever since after mids I think I lost focus. Yep Riyanti is right. We all lost interest in studying. Who wouldn't? Long school hours, grades (well, for me)don't show, teachers don't see (my) effort, etc, etc, etc.

There goes Promos, over and grades down the drain.

And I am very, very exhausted.

And up next, 'A' levels chinese and PW.

Believe it or not, my parents thought I was lying to them when I told them I (still)have exams (even though it was after promo).

Why would I?!

I don't bother to clear it up anyway.

I can't even blog properly nowadays.

& I have a long To-Do list.

Help me,

I am giving up on everything,

when I know I can't but I can't help it.

Studies, friends, relations, CCA, personal, etc, etc.

I want to go somewhere to study.

Maybe. I might still end up at home listening to music.

Argh.

I hate myself.

I wish I have a best friend who live near me. Then we can study, go home, go out together.

Sigh.

Bye.


Well, I never saw it coming.
And I should've started running
A long, long time ago.

=)

I WISH...

1. Everyday was like yesterday's day out with them
2. I could security lock my room (you know, codes and everything)
3. I have a DSLR (looked at Mr Lim's pictures taken using DSLR. They were good. A compact I cant do that.)
4. & a laptop
5. & braces (damn I look ugly)
6. Time will reverse (I will study harder)
7. Our college have hostels (how fun and convenient to live in school)
8. I have a lifetime supply of soyabean and contacts and mints and gummies hah
9. 2s18 will consist of all of us ONLY(impossible hah)
10. There was school 24/7
11. My 1*10^n wishes will come true

Tried downloading games just now but my laggy computer wouldn't allow me to. Sigh.
There goes. More excuse to go play LAN next time, but no $. *grins. I wanna try o2jam. Looks fun.

I wish I was like her, her and him, etc.

Currently not very happy due to certain stuff.

Looking forward to HK, out of this place.

I love all my friends.
Supposedly going Lavender to do my passport on my own but it feels very lonely so I think I will postpone it to someday after school.

Ok.

I think I am going to school to study.

Ciaos people.

___________________

Back from school.
Thanks Kelly for accompanying me! (:

Sadly school closed at 5.30pm. I wanted to study more. So in the end, read 4 texts from the textbook. And I realised they were kinda boring. A lot of difficult words and I have to keep referrring to the back. And there wasn't hanyupinyin. RAH.

After that we went to J8 to get some stationeries! (:

Oh my lonngggg trip home on bus 88 was a torture.

First there was this man who came onto the bus with 2 phones. One on his left hand and he was talking into it at the TOP of his voice, using hokkien vulgarities as punctuation. 'Jokingly' how lim pei will cut off his (that one) if he ____?____. Something I didn't really catch.

I don't really understand hokkien (even though my dialect is). On his right hand was another phone with BLASTING MUSIC. Like Jay Chou's Huo4 Yuan2 Jia3 (that song from some movie). Followed by a series of Hokkien music which, again, I couldn't comprehend.

Finally when he finished talking about how lim pei will whatever to whoever, he tried calling another person but the person didn't pick up so he blurted a whole series of vulgarities at his phone on his left hand complaining how the person never pick up lim pei's phone while the phone on his right hand was still blasting some woman singing a Hokkien song.

At the same time there were 2 boys talking loudly (with a kind of accent which wasn't local) on the bus. At some point of time another person blasted S.H.E. music.

Like around 45 minutes later I reached my bus stop. And the lim pei man with 2 phones alighted at the same stop.

Then, peace to my ears. *cheers.(:

Reached home, bathed, had dinner. Remembered that I had PW to do so here I am. But instead got distracted, started listening to music and blogging.

It don't do me any good it's just a waste of time
What use is it to you what's on my mind?
If it ain't comin' out, we're not going anywhere
So why can't I just tell you that I care?

'Cause I'm feeling nervous
Tryin' to be so perfect


Guess I'm wishing my life away


THE KILL.

=)

Commendation day!
Of course, I was not qualified enough to go up on stage to collect any prizes, academic or not.
Must really work hard next year.
For now, Chinese and PW!
_______________

Went to school in college tee this morning. During assembly our year head was unhappy 'cause he said that he had told us (I forgot) that we must wear full school uniform. During our short meeting with Mr Ang outside the classroom (it was locked -.-) he told us that we must go home and change. Luckily, I brought my school uniform. So I just changed in school. Phew. But Woody (who lived very far from school) had to go home and return to school in 1 hours time.

After that, went somewhere to chill (HAHA). :X Should not elaborate more lest some teachers read my blog? LOL.

Commendation ceromony in the hall. Sorry to doze off during Principal's speech. Woke up during the pictures slide show which ended kinda abruptly leaving me with a [?]. LOL.

Sang 'When You Believe", then the college anthem. Thought of the times during orientation when we sing a particular phrase in the song SUPER LOUD. And it did come true? LOL.

Received our year books (which highly resembles a National Geographic magazine) after the ceromony. Flipped through, saw my class photo, I look weird, flipped to ODAC, surprised to see no J1 photo, my friends jokingly said it was my fault, what has it gotta do with me, saw a picture of my classmates mugging, saw our pro-bowler:P picture, saw Jack's pic at the CCA Squash page, etc etc.

On the MRT, the guys were still looking at year book *ahem. Stoned.

:D.

Went to play LAN with Riyanti and the guys (Henry, Jack, DY, Jerald, Cvn, Woody, Gersh, Julius). Did I leave any names out? Well first time gaming:X.

Riyanti accompanied me to get a shirt (so that I can go play LAN). Haha. Thanks!:D

At first I watched Gersh and Riyanti play CS. Complicated o.0! Then saw Jack play O2 Jam. WOAH. PRO! I wanna try that!

In the end got very very bored so I decided to join in the game. CS.... is very violent ):. And I keep getting killed the moment I step out of the territory. But sometimes I manage to shoot people down when they were shooting others (therefore they didn't notice I was there!). Haha.

Violence... is not justfiable. Blah blah, blabbering nonsense HAH.

Henry left early, so by the time we left there were only 8 of us left.

Went to Mac at Paradiz centre to eat and talk. DY, Jerald and Jack went to play Time Crisis at the arcade nearby.

And I had chocolate sundae! Yumyum! ><

Then waved goodbye to Jack and Gersh who were talking bus home.

So what was left of the 8 of us went to PS as Jerald needed to buy something. Then boarded the same MRT as Julius, Cvn and Riyanti.

After I alighted at Kovan, decided to go back to school to get my Chinese textbook. So went to the coffeeshop nearby to put on college tee. Wow. There were still quite a number of J2s studying for their A levels. ALL THE BEST! (:

And ALL THE BEST TO OUR MT PAPER ON MONDAY! (:

&&&. We are officially J2s! WOO!

LOL.

=)

Today started with the release of Promo results. Wasn't very excited/scared 'cause I had already suffered the shock on monday.
Oh well. Got it back, no anticipation.
Mr Ang told me about my results and asked me how I felt.
Crushed.
So I told him I am not happy with my grades.
I admit that I expect a lot from myself.
Not at all. So he said my Math was good, blah blah, Chinese good, blah blah, gotta brush up on Chem and Econs, blah blah, GP also, blah blah.
And I promised him. Shucks.
So I asked him if I will be seperated from the rest of the class.
He laughed a bit and said no. Really?
I seriously hope so...

After which, proceeded to the hall for some blah talk which I wasn't listening to. Heard that the speaker was rather suan-ing us.
Didnt have any talks (neither did very well nor otherwise) so could go home. But stayed back for PW. Stood at the side of the canteen with Jack, Clr & Gersh waiting for Mr Ng but apparently after quite some while he was still busy so we went off to the classroom. Meanwhile there was a guy(Clr's friend I suppose) who started sitting down on the floor, borrowing Clr's guitar and started playing. Leslie started to throw coins. LOL.
So back to the classroom.
First some of my group members practiced our group 'secret'. *grins.
Then slacked around, did OP slides, talked, edited OP slides, played games, rehearsed OP, etc etc etc.
Finally done at 2+p.m . Cvn, DJ, Gersh, Clr & I boarded the bus to Kovan. Cvn didnt join us for lunch. Ate at KFC. Had yummy and messy BBQ meltz. Haha. First it was rather solemn (I don't really talk while eating by the way). In the end DJ started jokes and 'broke the ice'?. LOL.
Laughed alot at the jokes, really made my day, these guys. I treat them as my real good friends. Mutual?

Sigh. Haha.
Anyway.

What does FUZZIE WUZZIE like? (It took me a year to 'figure out'. I overheard the 'solution' someday when I was sitting at First Love Cafe eating. LOL.)

HAHAHA. DJ & Clr, it took me 1 year! Its OK(: hahaha. (They got frustrated with guessing. I think we played it for more than an hour. LOL.)

Ohya! And I answered this within 5 seconds! *clap. LOL.

DJ: Why is the picture sad?
Me: Because it was framed.

Haha! So after that, waited a while for Clr & Gersh's bus. Sorry DJ I was kinda rushing to fetch my younger sis so couldn't wait with you. Stoned at the bus stop for at least 15 minutes. Saw some Bowenians and thought of my old first intake days (not secondary ones HAH).

Alighted at a stop before the destinated stop because there was stil time (weird, thought I was late!). Went to supermarket to get sweets and soya bean milk. I seem to spend a lot on these 2 stuffs.

So currently home. Downloaded the trial version of the software Clr used to edit photos. So photos posted in the next 30 days may be edited (I haven't figure out how to use the software yet). Cool.

And at the same time, viewing photgraphy tutorials online.
And piano tutorials as well.

Why don't I have such enthusiasm when it comes to studies. Argh!

You know what. I am falling asleep in front of the computer right now. 2 days, total of 5 hours of sleep. And ALOT of things undone. Especially for ODAC. I am so, terribly sorry.

I am so tired, so tired.

I badly want a break, a getaway, a good meal, a laptop, a piano.

=)

HI WORLD.
I cant believe I am blogging at 6am in the wee hours.
It feels kinda lonely.
10 people online but all away. Maybe in dreamland?

Fell asleep yesterday while waiting for sis to finish using the computer. -.- I wished I had a laptop! Argh. So woke up at 3.40am today and barged (HAH) into my parents' room ('cause the computer is there) to do PW. Ohmy. I just remembered. My chinese!
I am so dead.
Finished slides and editing, but have not written cue cards. Shucks. Screw up OP again...
I feel stupider each time I talk.
Argh!
Must practice.
I MUST NOT PULL MY GROUP GRADES DOWN.

Changed my blog URL, haven't inform a lot of people yet.
I am going to sleep in class today.
Watch me!
LOL.

Pics again during CL and PW class, upload soon. :D
I love 1s18 and it will NEVER SPLIT!
Hopefully.
I will ask Mr Ang later.
Hahaha.
Sob.

______________

Back from school.
Again, taking pictures during Chinese class. Shucks I cant focus. And 'A' levels are just a few days away.


GUMMY.



Alright cameras are now my source of entertainment. When I have nothign to do, I take out the nice little touch-screen digicam and start snapping stuff/people. Sorry for being irritating. :\

I increasingly dislike myself each day, for the way I am, for the way I treat people, for the way I shut myself out to others, for the way I shut others out.

At least PW was way better today. I am starting to love PW. Why? This all came so late. Mr Ng should be the teacher right from the beginning of the year...

OP was ok. I was referring to my cards too much. But at least I was audible! Which's really a great achievement. :D 'Cause I hear myself as very loud (I don't know why).

I sense some kind of hate. Maybe I was in the wrong all this while.

Blabbers. Cant remember anything for now. Lethargic.

Ohyea ODAC last training today. Only ran 1 pathetic round during training argh. I felt so weak can. But there's this constant feeling of this dark cloud above me (heavy sinking feeling in my head and it feels very dark at the head) so I decided to give a lot of stuff they did today a miss. Sigh.

Anyway HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO GUIHONG! (:

I wasn't able to wish him properly 'cause I cant think properly during training (due to 'dark cloud').

Now... still a bit of drowsy feeling. I think I am going to fall real sick soon. Sigh.

And I havent change my passport photo. And I havent change HK currency. How to go HK.

Nowadays, too drained to do anything.

Results day tomorrow gosh I still haven't ask Mr Ang if I am going to be split from the class. I wanna know but I am afraid to know. WAHHH.

P.S. Thanks Henry for sending me your game! :D THANKS ALOT ALOT.

So tired, so tired.

=)

YOYOYO!
Blogging using Riyanti' laptop in SAC now! wow, been long since I last stepped into the SAC. Last time, used to study here for exam till very late at night. Nostalgia. Maybe? LOL.
I still cant use laptop properly -.-
Apologies if there' any typo beforehand HAH.
Updates...
DJ and Gersh doing their PW on my left, Riyanti playng PSP on my right! (:
Hehe. Forgot to ask Mr Ang if I will be splitting from the class. Argh.
Changing blog name 'cause Riyanti say some people cannot view my blog. *thinks. get back to here later!

=)

WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
I dont want my class to split.
Or rather, I dont wanna be splitted(?) from my class!

Today morning Mr Ang told us to go to our CT venue after assembly. Zombie-d there. To my horror he was going to let us verify our grades. Overall! At first he wanted to call everyone up one by one but (I was the first to be called up 'cause my index number's 1) I kept telling him "I don't remember my grades".

I didn't want to remember, hah.

So in the end he had no choice but to give back to everyone at 1 shot then ask us to calculate by percentage of our CAs and MYE to get the overall grade. So yep. I type, type, type into the calculator furiously(ok exagerrating) and then matched the number on the screen with the one on the paper under the 'Overall' columm. No mistakes. Argh. Cant they type wrongly, like 68 is actually 78? LOL.

So yep tried to do mental sums in my head, adding up my ranking points. In the end had to rely on Suyi for the ranking point system 'cause I forgot-.- (nervous luh) So... instead of what I had calculated a few days(?) ago [44], it turned out to be 48.

48! 12 from my aim. Argh.

Asked around, a few guys got 50 to 60-something.

They are real good...

*clap.

Sigh.

Am I not going to be in s18 next year?

s18... supposedly (as quoted from teachers) the best class of the cohort for this combination.
but I don't fit in here anymore.

48! SO FAR from my TARGET!

I am going to (ask someone to help me) ask Mr Ang tomorrow.

48! Idiotic number. -.-

Somehow, sounds like a curse? LOL.

WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

& for the rest of the day, I just kept moaning about my results (Sorry to people who have to hear my moans over and over and try to console me:\. Just ignore me hah.).
______
Chinese class- Not bad as usual. Brought sour yupi gummy burgers to eat. Yumyum.

During the short break in between, Laoshi wanted us (HK people people going HK) to pay up our $200 deposit. So we took out all our cash & put it all together & WOAH we kinda became the centre of attention/attraction. LOL.
Cold, hard cash!






Cha-ching!


Clr: I never hold so much $ in my life before!

LOL! Me too.
Too bad dont have Riyanti's if not will make up $1100.

Lessons were mere copying model answers, nothing much to blog about.

After lessons, a few of us stayed back a while to talk to Laoshi. Talked about people with good grades (WOAH...), HK, our class, etc.

After break, first half of PW lessons. Presented OP. Comments were : CLEAR:D but too soft):. AGAIN? Seriously, I hear myself as VERY LOUD. Sigh. And I exceeded the time limit. Hey I still have ALOT of things to say ok.

Haha. Then listened to everyone else present except 121 'cause Riyanti was absent.

Lunch, stayed in class to use the school a-bit-laggy laptop. Waited for Blogger to load but the page was still blank after half an hour, so gave up. Surfed Friendster and Facebook, played a few games. Gersh took over to update his Facebook and play games. Bored, looked at him play then walked around. Woody was playing SIMS 2. I have no idea how to. Shall just forget the idea of borrowing from some of my classmates then. Haha.
In the end, decided to take pictures. I love my camera :D. Although I will still want a DSLR HAH.


A failed attempt to take a nice shot of my pencil.





Clr's masterpieces! :D


Terminal 1: SIMS2. Terminal 2: Internet. Terminal 3(the other side of the classroom): CS.

Our classroom was like a mini-IT room!(:
_______

Went for Math lecture. A-quarter of s18 turned up. Whole row empty! Resisted the temptation to take out my camera to take a picture of the phenomenal 's18 empty row of chairs' lest it gets confiscated. :X

Was walking with Pauline, LX and Suyi (supposedly going home) but met the guys who suggested bubbletea. Pauline and Suyi didn't want, (LX went the other way) so I tagged along with the guys for bubbletea. *hungry. Haha.

As usual, after bubbletea they went to play PG (playground). I was being irritating by trying to snap pictures of them. :X. Sorry! But... memories...):. All of us may not be in the same class? NO we must be in the same class argh!

K I still need some tiem to get over with this.

Anticipating good news on commendation day, that is, s18 promotes as a WHOLE CLASS, SAME CLASS, SAME PEOPLE only.


Their fav;

Bubbletea & PG.

P.S: Sorry to people whom evil me and my innocent camera have bu4 xiao3 xin1 de2 zui4.

WAHAHA. Chinese. 'A'levels coming ya know. Must use more.

P.P.S. Apologies for pixellated pics yesterday. I didn't re-upload the pics, but will make sure this doesn't happen again! (:


I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams

=)

WOAH. I am like online for the umpteen time today, BORED, BORED, BOREDOM.
What to do? First was 'cause of PW. Second was 'cause of PW. For the nth time also PW. But this time I've gotta wait for Jack to finish his part (I am online too early I guess).

Rotted. Started looking at old emails, old photos, those old kiddy games that I used to play.

Chanced upon an email which someone wrote to me 2 years ago and laughed at it.

Looked at old photos.

1s06







I still miss them ):.


ODAC



Gosh. The codes went haywire so I could only post 2 pics for ODAC here. ):


US








1s18



Guess who?







WOAH... Overwhelmed with photos. I'm tired of typing codes. Shall stop here!
& If you cant find me in some photos, it just means that I am the photographer! :D
Updates...
Dinner was horrible, waited for 45 minutes and no food served. & Sis was rushing for time. Dad was quite unhappy about it and we cancelled our order. Poor service. I was complaining that (gurantee plus chop) the person must have forgotten. Haha. :X
So instead had tasteless noodles for dinner.

Argh I wanna sleep. Been blogging for an hour I think (most of the trying to edit codes for pictures). JACK!!! FASTERRRRR!

*ZZZ. Dozes off.

Been sleeping for the whoel day yet I feel so tired. Must be the virus in me acting up. Argh! And I still taste that tasteless noodles taste. ): Paradox. Irony.

School tomorrow. *Rejoices.

Commendation day coming. *Fears.

*Stares at screen.

Aight I dont know what to blog about already. Ciaos people! (:

=)

HELLO.

Blog color changed!

Yesterday, 191007.

Took this at the concourse a few days ago(?). Resemblance of some childhood show which gives me creeps. O_O

Before CL, walked around snapping pics of random stuff from school infrastructure to spinning fans. And watched LX play RokoRoko on DJ's PSP! So cute!


ROKOROKO!


& I saw this while taking pics of spinning fans! ODAC! WOO!

Again, intensive CL and PW. Lao shi's lesson was good. Haha. Snapping pics of random stuff during lesson.

Moriji and Julius.:D

PW lesson. First thing of Mr Ng's lesson agenda was to make wanchin read out some inspiring story on Socrates (pronounce: saw-cra-tis). T_T.
Then vetted Op scripts and Mr Ng said I was way better(than the day before) and I was good because I subcatergorised my points! So happy.

Before lunch, had to sing school anthem in front of the whole class (forfeit for not beign able to speak continueosly, and for some speaking hokkien etc during PW). Argh the moment we stood up there at least 3 cameras popped put. Plus DY took my camera and captured our 'glamourous' moment. There's even a video -_-.


I was hiding behind DJ HAH. So embarassing!

Lunch, was stuck by the window (K I sat there with DJ and Clr to watch Gersh and Riyanti play Lemonade tycoon. Then Clr pushed the chair away and I couldn't get down. ARGH!) And DJ lent me his PSP to play RokoRoko! But I am stupid at games so yep.
Anyway, screenshot!


Fat fat RokoRoko~!

Aight I am kiddy. Oh well. And all that time I was stuck at the window DJ drew a very nice picture of me(well thats what he wrote there hah)and put it at the visualiser. So I took a pic of it!


WOAH. I wished I can draw.

After lunch, all of us sat in a circle in the middle of the classroom and read some dramatic script of a couple quarreling. Which of course I was the worst. Sigh.

Anyway that was followed by another public speaking thing. The next person's topic is the last word that the previous speaker had said. Haha Julius's one was on "droppings" 'cause Cvn ended with "So, I love droppings." LOL!

Thanks Weiwei who helped me by ending with a easier topic for me which was "shopping". but as expected I couldn't say anything much. Argh. I hate that kind of attention. Wished there was a hole or something. But I resisted the urge to backface everyone. Achievement of the day!

Then went back to groups to discuss OP slides. Ate gummy burgers 'cause I was very hungry (remeber I was stuck on the window so I didn't have lunch. WTH. LOL.).


DY: "this is the best way to eat gummy burgers".

I eat gummy burgers slice by slice. Pauline said last time there was a plastic container to contain the burger. Now I remember. Haha.

ODAC training after school. 3 sets of circuit training. Which consisted of running, 20 push-ups, running, 20 starjumps, running, sprinting, 20 step-ups, 50m shuttle-run per set. Sounds easy but I was half dead by the end of it. Weak. ARGH!

Usual bubbletea after ODAC. Chocolate ice blended (which I highly suspect puts back all the fats I lost during training but oh well.)!

Reached home, bathed, slept without having dinner until 9.30am this morning.

I missed my favorite show ):. But was too exhausted.

Sigh today Susu is having a hari raya party at her house. But I gotta catch up on PW and I am pretty sick. ): ):. Sorry Susu ):.

& Commendation day is coming, and I am so, so scared.


:D.
I want a laptop and a piano and a DSLR and a stabilo color pens set.
Greedy me.

=)

The feeling of lousiness is a geometric pregression.
I never knew public speaking was so difficult for me.

Last time, I used to be confident of myself until someone robbed me of every single bit of it.
And now, I am trying so hard to get it back.

Today during PW, we had to talk for 3 minutes about a random topic. I was made to talk about 'buses'.

First I went UHM. Stared at the flimsy piece of paper on my hand. It said 'buses' -_-. I wished there was a hole and I can just jump in. I wished my brain could function and make me speak at least something. Stared at Cvn who was counting down. I wished all this was a nightmare and I could wake up from it. Looked at everyone whom seem to be laughing at me. I wished I would stop saying "I don't know....". I must have looked real stupid. Yea. All the pairs of eyes directed at me just made me feel lousier than ever.

WHY?! I mean, the rest of the 16 people can do it. I am so stupid!

):.

I think even the teacher got a shock. He used the word 'traumatised'to describe me. ARGH.

Sigh. And even school food is not appetising now. I shall try going on a week without solid food. I think I lost some weight already, yay, lol. Home food.. is not any better. :\

I don't feel like eating. Even soya bean is turning me off already. Sick of sweets. A bit of appetite for chocolate. None for rice/noodles/etc.
After school, some of the guys went out, some went home? and I went home. Sorry for being a little... rude? to Julius. I didn't know what to say, was still feeling very lousy over the PW thing. Hope you guys had fun(:!

LOUSY ME.
I am going to screw up OP tomorrow.
I am going to pull the group grades down.
I am so, terrible sorry.

Why is it that I can blog on and on but when it comes to verbally I cant speak even a single complete sentence blah blah blah.

Mr Lim and everyone else was right man.

Damn I hate myself even more now.


Felt like a scene on the cutting room floor

=)

Went to school on time to do road duty. Stood there for half an hour with the same pose muahaha. The glove extended to 3/4 of my arm. I looked like an bright (yellow/orange) idiot, LOL.

After duty, didnt make it on time to my class's line and the national anthem had started already, so stood behind some class for the assembly. Talked a bit to Gary (s06 classmate!) 'cause both of us couldn't find our classes.

During the needs survey (in the oven of the LT4), Riyanti and Woody started calling me on the phone(?, I was standing like right in front of the whole class and they didnt see me haha) 'cause they thought I wasn't in school or something. LOL. For a moment I thought it was some network problem which causes the(someone's) phone to call my phone when he/she hasn't dialled.

After which was GP lecture. I need earplugs. ): Some lecturers' voices are just BOOMING!

Do remember to copy GP from Aspire.

After break was Chinese. Sat in the fridge of the Seminar room. Gersh and Clr kept talking but I half-forgot what they were talking about already. :X LOL. Jerald tried to tease me argh. Yep so copied notes and listened (to both the teacher and Gersh and Clr and Jerald). Thanks to Clement who lent me his spare notes as I didnt bring mine. ARGH why am I so forgetful ):. And I didnt do 'cause I forgot that the intensive MT and PW thing is starting already.

Ohmy I don't have the mood for studying now, so tired...

Its like I tried so hard for Promo, and the results don't show at all. How disappointing...

& I was aiming for 60.
GP- E
MT- A
Phy- E
Ec- E
Chem- U
Math- A
With MT: 44
W/o MT: 40

I am like a HUGE 16 points away from my aim. And these have not included C.As, which I think if included will plunge me down, down, down.

Even Mr CCA Coordinator said I didnt do very well.

Sob.

Lunch, had 2 cups of soya bean as I wasn't able to swallow solid food due to very sore throat.

PW, went to library to print. Sadly our group wasn't able to hand in today 'cause 2 of our group members were absent. ):

After school, chat, chat, chat(: then went for ODAC training.

Today we did circuit training. *Bones breaking. Been long since I ran. Mr Lim came to talk to me during water break, saying that I must open up/ speak up. A lot of people have told me this. Hmm. I am just not used to talking to people whom I don't know very well. Some say I am difficult to get close to/ still feel very distant when with me. After training, Mr Lim told me to be independent again. o.0

Really. I thought I was friendly HAH.

The independent part... Guess I really gotta work on it.

Got a lot of ideas for noticeboard and I compiled all of them together in my brain but I have no idea how to put it on paper/ to action.

Thanks ODACians(:.

Then went to buy bubble tea with Hwee. Waved goodbye to Waikit, Aaron, Yuanlin and Isaac. Went to play swing :D. Until a little girl came and wanted to play. :X

On my way home, met Lijie and Dickson on the bus. Chat, chat then waved goodbye, then home sweet home.

Home computer home.
Home PW home.
Home sleep home.

K I dont know what I am talking about.

Edited WR, sent to everyone, now what else do I have to do.

I think I said something about ODAC, something on poll, noticeboard.

Now they all come in fragments.

T_T.

=)

Hello everyone.
I am feeling better already, thanks. (:

Yesterday night, went to PS to walk walk with my very good friend! Stupid Me got lost at the MRT station 'cause I was talking over the phone and following the person in front of me. First we went for dinner at Long John. Then off to see bags (we need a bag!) and shoes (we need shoes too!). But to no avail. ): Then went to Spotlight to see if I could get anything for the ODAC noticeboard, but again to no avail. Saw this wooden alphabets thing but 1 alphabet for $5. WOAH. O-D-A-C will cost $20! So expensive. Haha. Then we went to play arcade to relax. Basketball and Daytona. Sad dont have Bishibashi. LOL. Being with her really cheers me up, she's such a nice girl, thanks. No names! (:

Right after the horrors of promo comes intensive PW (*even more horror) and MT (*not so much of horror but I hate writing chinese). And come to think of it I havent done my Chinese assignment (remember the thick booklet they make us buy which cost us $0.70 HAHA). And PW! I cant find any statistics. Argh. I can never be independent. I turned to Yahoo Answers for help. Shh. :X

Mr Ng is a real good PW teacher. I wished we have him from the start. Oh well. At least he not only tells us where we go wrong but how we can improve as well. Which I feel is better than our current teacher who gives us kinda vague comments leading our group to nowhere and maybe even failure.

*Blabber blabber.

Gotta do PW later, I hope it turns out fruitful and my brain, please function later. And did I say, Stupid Me lost all the minutes that I have been writing (I am the group secretary) and I am so, so dead 'cause I cant recall what we did.

I am so sorry to my group, I seem more of a burden than a help.

Furthermore, my OP was horrible(cant hear a single word I was saying) and I am so gonna pull my group grades down.

WAH.

I so hate myself!

Goodnesss, negativity again.

):.

Alright cheery! Loves, people. (:


K EDIT EDIT. @ 2234.
Was late for PW meeting, apol;ogies to Pauline and maybe Clr who was waiting at Mos Burger.
Most discussion without Jack.
Then blah blah blah, stoned, listened, my brain did function but I dont know how to put them in words so its just as well as not functioning, saw cousin, waved, off to arcade/pool.
Wow-ed at Pauline's talent at Parapara :X, screamed at both of them for banging my car/winning me at Daytona, hahaha, then watched DY and Clr play Time Crisis4, then watched Jack and DY play some Puzzle turbo thing, stoned, drank soya bean(:, bored, finally, walked to AMK hub, waved everyone goodbye, then to bus stop, then to NTUC near my house to buy sweets, then home.

Now home, doing PW, desperately finding statistics but to no avail again.

Lazy to type in proper sentences. Hahaha.

I wished I have a laptop and a piano in my room. Hahaha.

So that all my info are inside (the laptop) and I dont have to search 2 computers just to find them (k I am kinda disorganised...) and piano! I love piano. Sadly I never learnt how to play.


nice.

=)

WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU?!

was the first thing that came out of most people's mouths when I told them my grades (since they asked about it). Everyone was expecting me to do well.

Priorities, WRONG.

Distractions.

ETC ETC ETC.

Push me down.

SIGH.

Today was the worst day ever.

Firstly I woke up late, rushed to school and was late for ODAC duty. Luckily I wasn't scolded or anything. Then the day just kept worsening.
Physics lecture, I knew I was going to flunk. But somehow at that point of time I felt indifferent. I expected it. SIGH.

Finally checking scripts time. First we got back out MT. Quite happy with my CL. BUt who knows, the worst has yet to come. After that big 'A' were constant 'E's, then 'U's. Thanks Pauline, DJ and Clr who tried to cheer me up. No thanks to people who keep rubbing it in. SIGH. Sorry. Still feeling kinda down now.
Tried very hard to focus for the rest of the day but to no avail.

After school, ODAC training. PT the whole day. Sick but I just kept running on. So weak. SIGH. All I felt was lethargy. And I hate forcing that fake smile. Blah blah blah. But being around with lovely ODACians really cheered me up a bit.
After training, as usual, bubble tea. Tried a new flavor but it tasted bad. Oh well.

What happened... to me?
_______________________
FROM SOME PREVIOUS POST (long,long time ago)
Aims for PROMOS.
GP-BC (current:E)
CL-A (current:B)
Physics-B (current:B)
Math-A (current:B)
Chem-AC (current:E)
Econs-BC (current:D)

EDITED, UPDATED, as of 021007, 2133.
Aims for PROMOS.
GP-D (actual:E)
CL-B (actual:A)
Physics-C (actual:E)
Math-C (actual:?)
Chem-C (actual:U)
Econs-C(actual:E)
_______________________

So wrong, so wrong. I... GIVE UP.

Or maybe until commendation day.
Or maybe...
I shall just forget everything.

Crap.
Sprouting nonsense.

Studying shall be my passion.
Nothing else...

Next year, study study study everyday in school till 9.

Somehow, I feel that its better that I do this alone.
First, I distract people around me.
Second, people around me distract me.

I don't know how to put it across.

Mr Ang said I did OK.
So what? I am going to promote to FAILURE.

I know there are some who did worse (and who say: at lest you still have your mid years...) but I cant help it but feel sad about my grades, guilt, remorse.

SIGH.

And I think I am going to be obsessed with Internet (and maybe SIMS2? Badly want to borrow from Weiwei. And badly want to play Audition. And feels like trying Second Life.) and pianos soon.

I am turing into some ________.
Help me quit this.

SIGH.

=)

PROMOS officially O-V-E-R!
In 2 sense...?

Woke up at 3.30am to study Math today, but fell asleep instead between attempts to squeeze some formulas into my not-so-empty brain (because I studied 8 hours the day before!).

Went to school with dread, knowing that no more last minute work will help anymore.

Went into the exam hall with even more dread.

Opened the exam booklet, flipped, relieved. (:

COOL. I could do the paper! Except question 11. Think my whole class can't do it. Weird differentiation question with 4 variables. I gave up on the whole thing. 9 marks into the rubbish bin.

After exams, went to SAC for ODAC meeting. Stoned 'cause my brain was real empty. Sorry to CW who keep asking for ideas and I just sat there staring into space and shaking my head. I'll turn into a zombie after exams/tests. :X

Suyi was waiting for me outside SAC, then I forced her to go Kovan Mac to find Riyanti and the guys, 'cause I don't wanna stay in school. Sigh. I am so bad.

We walked there, and when we reached some guys were like asking if we got lost. Tsktsk!

So after eating, went to Kovan to walk around. While standing in front of the sushi shop(I forgot the name), saw Branson and his classmates who were there too. Then looked around while the guys shopped for jackets I think. In the end they bought nothing, so we went to see if we could book any chalet (at the electronic... machine? outside Giordano), and guess what? Woody found a POSB/credit/debit (I dont know how to differentiate:\) card. So we took it and returned to a MRT personnel on our way back (they didnt want to give it to the information counter person at kovan :P).

Took the bus back to school, surprisingly we werent very late for Chinese lecture. Very boring. LOL.

After which was Leadership Seminar at LT4. Went there with Clr and DJ. Sat wuth Nadia and Mabel. I couldn't entertain people much): so they were pretty bored. Sigh. Hmm. I like the pictures on the slides(HAHA). But the color made my eyes hurt, oh well. Until the magic hand (IT personnel?)came and with the touch of his finger the colors were back! Tadaa. And my eyes don;t hurt as much anymore. (:


Random-.-

Saw Fukie outside LT4. Noticeboard. Oh man. I need ROPES. Those used for... hanging(LOL)? I don't know. And why did I start on something not so important? Sigh.

Just then Clr noticed that his hand was bleeding. So he went to wash his wound but it wouldn't stop. So together with DJ we went to the general office for medication. Haha. First time was Gersh, then now Clr. Twins? :X

Took bus 112 home from the dreaded bus stop.

Checking scripts tomorrow. Looking forward, no? I don't know. Our class will promote together...

Argh. And dreaded PW lecture tomorrow.

I think I am getting irritating.

=)

Uhm. Hi.
Hahaha. I didnt ask for his permission to put this up on my blog. :X so I 'blanko-ed' everything. No names!


Botanic Gardens trip was fine, except that it rained so we didnt get the whole fun ):.

Went there with RF and Suyi, met ZY on the way there. Then met DY and Henry on the bus. So we walked... for god-(*scrolls up)knows-how-long then we reached the Swan lake. Then we continued walking... and asked for directions from some of the workers (I presume they are?) and then.. guess what? We were back at the Swan Lake again.

TOOK PICS! Uploaded on gallery. I love my class. (:


Ball.


At Swan Lake (for the 3rd time).
I was like 2 seconds late in pressing the camera button! Argh argh argh they were making a heart shape <3 ):. Took this in the rain somemore.):

So throughout the whole thing it just kept rainSTORM-ing then stopping. Its been long since I've been drenched. Resemblance to standing under the big big bucket of water at Wild Wild Wet and the water all comes down on you. Except that at Botanic Gardens the water was colder and it was continuous. o.0

Thanks to Lixuan and Suyi for sharing their umbrella with me, getting wet themselves so that I wont. K I did. All of us did. Hahah. Many times I tried to ran out of the umbrella but they pulled me back. Sigh. I like the rain. But it got me sick today. Oh well.

Today was good. After school, went out with Clr & Gersh to Bishan library to study. But there was this fierce librarian (lol), so after having lunch, we went to Mac to study.


VooDoo: Study hard for Math!


Full of red gummy bears!


Hi I am a emo gummy bear.

Sadly, Gersh ate it T_T.

Question of the day: Do different colored gummy bears taste different? :/

Had fun studying, though my brain is still hOllOw *echos.

Stayed there till around 8, then couldnt decide where to have dinner so we went home.

And its like today, I felt real ugly. ):

So its like 2316 now and I still have no appetite for dinner.

Mug hard people.